irritated.

dunno why. but i feel so irritated ryt now. cuz of some stuffos. some pple juz dunno how to organise things properly. and juz blow up at others. i dunno la.

newae, tmr got phy remedial. after dat gg meet e rez to look at atuff arnd bras basah. rod stuff. juz in case some cadets have an access to my blog. i wun type out wad stuffos we givin dem. ya.  but i bet it will be nice. =)

 

  
 

still in shock.
 
ok. u'll wan to noe why. dat stupid dumbass juz tol dus dat we dun need to come for pts and parades anymore. wtf! and before dat he made e whole company do pumpings. wth. actually i dun reli care. cuz its only 10. dats not e shocking part. e ten pumpings he made us do did not affect me anyway. well, i was kinda irritated. wanna act garang. go fuck off larh. claire was behind me and she kept saying 'go fuck off lah!' and stuff liddat.
 
den, after e cadets bersurai-ed, he told us dat we need not come for pts and parades! like hello? cant u tell us like way before dat?? so much for respecting our ranks. walaoo.. and we din even get to say our 'last gudbyes' and stuff.. so evil.. kinda felt like crying wen i think abt it. i noe dat its only e matter of time before we officially step down. but u noe, telling us on dat day itself! dats e meanest thing sumone can do. ok. not reli. he did other mean stuff to our plt and company!
 
-haizz.. abt only afew more weeks left before POP and ROD.- 

cool songs!

heyz. so i got fad to burn a cd for me! haha! all malay songs tho. KRU. nice babeh. all e old songs. was listening to it using discman while studying geog. now im listening hiphop non-stop thingy. ya. new one. dunno where my sis got it frm. nice new songs. yupp.

ok.. gtg now. ciao! =)

stooopidd.

lalala. came up here to blog awhile. btw, im in comp lab. was doin phy report. and i realised my readings were, well, too perfect. and after awhile, decided to ask fad and hafie. guess wad. i did e whole expt wrongly. wow! felt reli stupid. im like so pathetic. how to pass physics like dis. fuck la. simple things like reading instructions properly also i cannot do. hiazzz~

newae, i gotta go home and study geog! wait. still got e dumb malay compo. smth geography-ish too. kinda very diff to translate into malay. i'll prolly take e whole day to complete it. good luck.

newae, its already almost e end of week 3. which mean we are dat closer to prelims. abt 4 more weeks. aka ONE MONTH or so. walao. if i were to screw up, i hope i wun screw up dat badly. i gotta do dis seriously man. its no more playtime.

i noe its very easy to say den do. duh. actions speak louder den words. distractions come easily. and i get carried away.

life's a bitch!

='(

last night was bad. after i blogged awhile den i lied on my bed. turned on e radio and switched off e lights. set my alarm and decided to send gudnyte msges to a few pple. all of a sudden i felt reli reli tired. i mean. i dunno how else i wud describe it but ya. i felt reli exhausted.

i tried to go to sleep but i ended up reminding myself dat i only had 5 weeks or so left. and i haven studied much. i started to cry and i couldnt stop it. den i tot abt more things. like i wudden wan to disappoint my parents. i can imagine e expressions on their faces wen i show dem my results. e disappointed looks.

and ROD is coming. like i gotta let go of all e things which ive been holding on to for 3 and half yrs.. as in ncc. me and my dearest pltmates. dey are e closest grp of frens i haf in cedar. and we are all bonded thru ncc. i wudden trade any of dem for anything in dis world. and all of a sudden, e tots of me having to leave cedar witout dem is reli hurtful. it hurts me so much dat i haf to let go of all dese things.

its juz dat its so fast. actually its too fast. i can still rmb e first day wen i walked into e foyer. and all.. anyway, we are left wit pathetic 3 mths in cedar.. can u believe dat.. 3 mths.. if 3 yrs can go by juz like dat. u cant imagine how fast 3 mths can be.

before u noe it, it'll all be over. things will be different. im so scared. scared i might not survive well witout all dese.

i tot abt all dese. cried more. i dun rmb wad time i stopped. ya. i cried myself to sleep. woke up wit swollen eyes.

hiazz.. i feel so stressed out.

tiredddd..

hiazz.. dunno why nowadays i feel so tired. i dun think i've not had enuf rest. i sleep normally every night. abt at least 5hrs of sleep. nad i feel fatigue. kinda very exhausted. had to drag myself out of bed every morning. im very sure e 'tiredness' only started dis week.

i tried to do tys. and i fell asleep on my books. and i wasnt even on my bed. my god. i put my head on e table. and i fell asleep.

and here i am. i juz woke up. its 11. came online to see hu are arnd.

i feel so pathetic. after skool study sessions haf not been reli dat productive. i feel so bad. prelims are getting nearer each day. fyi, dere's only abt 5 weeks left. -wk 4 to wk 8- can u believe dat? 5 weeks! only! im so dead. =(

Guys are like stars - so many to pick from
but only one can make all your dreams come true!

- Lindy Strahan -

lalala~ in comp lab now. was doin emaths. ya. came up to print smth for my bro. so decided to change templte awhile. and mebbe post smth up here. so ya. e quote. nice eh? and very true. and sweet. =)

gtg! tataa!

booo

so yeahh. juz came back frm skool. went down to hq wit e part as. dey are very lucky to learn technical handling and wit demonstrations using real rifles. wen we were part as, we had boring theory lessons in classrooms, and had to draw parts of e rifle and imagine how dey wud look like in real life. pathetic man. haiz~ times have changed.

oh wells. ryy is reli cute. mebbe in sec 2 he looked abit kuku. but yeah. he's damn cute actually. haha!

every pe lesson is a torture. mr toh made me do arm power trainings and stuff. actually its ok. i juz hate e incilned sit ups. kinda hurts my back even more. sucker.

tired la. my eng essay still halfway done. my ribcage hurts. on both sides.

oUch!

my back hurts.. juz came back frm ncc day rehearsal.. dere's dis sharp pain arnd e area at my lower back..pain...

im kinda tired. nytes.

great day! great day!

eheh! went to skool early² to study.. dere were fad, shuxian, her frens, simaa, peigin and mich tang..

den wy came. had phy remedial till 3. kinda cool. qt fun also. mr yau is so funny. =)

den go meet ayub. haha! he's supposed to come to skool den take bus from macpherson. so ya he din. cuz he had some knee injury. so i walked to pp. haha. and take bus to far east. makan at puncak. e honey dew chicken noodle was not bad! den we walked aimlessly to everywhere. haha. and i bumped into mei feng! haha! den i stupidly suggested we take bus back to bedok. 401. my god! endless. it passed by e whole stretch of east coast park.

and i walked home. bumped into kak liyana. and haikel! eheh.. fishy fishy.. =)

tmr got ncc day rehearsal. haven prepare uni yet. tmr i wake up early to starch and polish boots la. ya. ok. nytes all. im tired. walked too much. =)