nice.... =)

dere's always dat one person
that will always haf your heart
you never see it comin' cuz
you're blinded from e start
noe dat you're dat one for me,
it's clear for everyone to see
ooh baby, you will always be my boo

=usher feat alicia keys=

www.usherworld.com
ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! =)

so confused

to be or not to be,
dat is e question
i dun noe wat to do
im in a state of confusion
all i want from you is your love and affection
is dis love real or just an illusion?

=2play feat raghav=

tired?

haizz.. not reli tired larhh.. despite sleeping at 4 am in e morning... and waking up at 5.30.. i was totally fresh in class..

came back.. had yesterday's food for lunch/dinner... wells.. ya..

e maid's still here.. so my hse is very clean.. however.. kinda crowded.. i sleep everywhere/anywhere.. my mum's wen dad's not arnd.. my bro's wen he's not arnd.. study table wen i fall asleep on books.. and e smaller living room wen im desperate for space and privacy.. -den again... wad privacy...-

take care ya alls... =)

arghh...

cant get myself to study seriously today.. dun noe why im kinda restless today too.. mebbe cuz ... ya.. haizz.. i think so... ^{..won sid ekil sgniht era yhw}

nothing is on e tv.. not supposed to be watching anyway.. ok.. only got e rally.. and i mean ONLY e rally.. its like on all channels.. yes.. u name it.. suria, channel 5, channel 8, channel u, channel i and channel newsasia too.. walaoo..


--some people want it all
but i dun wan nothing at all
if it ain't you baby
if i ain't got you baby
some people want diamond rings
some just want everything
but everything means nothing
if i ain't got you--

heh.

study. study. study. study. study.

i need to study.

i muz study.

i love to study.

--let me keep freaking around,
i wanna get down
and i'm a red-blooded woman,
what's the point of hanging around?--

study.

lalala.

okehs.. phy remedial was fun!

wen i reached skool, saw e company at e bball court.. brought back memories.. both good and bad ones.. arhs.. how i miss everyone..

den did series.. yeahh.. wit fad..

downloaded some of usher's songs.. gotta need to borrow his cd and burn! harsss...!

^{im twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me dat i need to move on. on e other side i wanna break down and cry.}

=)

g0sh! phy kinda rox.. came back home at abt 6.. had oral.. it was erm.. *self-explainatory* ya..

den had dinner.. and check email and stuff..

by 7 plus i sat down to do work.. did series 8~! woohoo~! den did it like a disciplined child.. and i'm halfway thru.. accompanied by my discman, lovely burnt-cd, and a cup of coffee.. =)

taking a break now..

*breathes in*




























*breathes out*

break over..

ciao!

be gone ya all... =)

=S

tired.



































































im so so tired.







































of everything.

cold..

arhs.. its raining real heavily down here in e east.. and im in my mum's room.. wit e aircon full-blast.. heez.. my toes are freezing..

lucky nv go downtown east to watch e dance.. i'll be a drowned rat if i did... =)

im supposed to forget everything abt it. but soemoned mentioned it.. and i got pissed all over again.. haiz.. _{why muz she say till liddat...} =S

mizundersto0d

haix. dunno wad im feeling now. rather down. its fad's bdae. happy burfday gurl! sure she's gg out wit her loved ones today. no time for me. =( see ya tmr! heexx..

^{i shall be on my own now. noone understands me.}

haf a good day everyone...

swirl....

=\

hais. sher's mad at me. sorry gurl. i actually went out to buy for u harry potter. no intentions of cancelling our plan.

_{i feel so bad.}

-

dots. nthg much to say. had a bad night. dun reli need to describe.

wells, skool was boring. wads new. had a boring assembly. some talk. totally not interresting! crap.

den went airport to study wit shappa, sher and hafie. kinda nice! did maths and more maths. =)

tmr gg again. den can eat at swensens.. =)))))))

take care all..

argh. starting to feel depressed again.

nobody understands us.

_{"started they day by meeting cheryl and ham.. went back to cedar.. supposed to go for the celebration.. but we nv made it.. too bad. stayed to watch the pop. no comments.. just an eye-opener. no matter how.. micheal chia still rocks man!! rock on!! yoyo~! "}

got dis frm sumbody's diary..

i wonder wad dey were told. i guess johnny toh told dem bad things abt us. well, dere's nothing dat we can do to change wad dey think of us. we dun reli like dem in e first place. so hu cares. e feeling's mutual. mc rox? _{rolls eyes.} dey din stay long enuf to experience wad all of dem did to us. den i cant blame dem. cuz dey nv knew.

well, personally,i think even if dey knew, dey wudden haf understood why we did wad we did. dey juz suck.

we were e best batch of specialists. we did so many things for e company. not forgetting e sacrifices we made. and we din even ask for more but a decent passing out parade. dey even dared to admit dat dey even had e intentions of not allowing 2 pltmates pass out wit us. after all dat we've done, dat was e kind of treatment we got. try removing all e achivements dat we got for e company since we were in part as. i bet we wun even haf dat gold unit award. so much for recognising our contributions. bull shit!

i dunno.. but i suddenly feel so angry all over again. its reli not a good feeling. esp combined wit sadness dat everything's over. i still cant accept e fact dat it is reli over. i guess many cant too. try to imagine. we wun be doin things dat we usually do juz becuz we're in ncc. dats like everything.

my part as.

okehs. so here's an entry for dem. dun think any of dem reads my diary anyway. well, i nv noe.

newae, thanx for everthing too. for e presents. i love e bracelet. thanx for making my life as a specialist a wonderful one. =)

^{haizz. now den i realise im starting to miss dem.}

finally.

haizz.. i noe i haven been updating for a long long time. its juz dat i dun come online dat often anymore and sometimes even if i do, i dun haf much things to say.

newae, we're done wit ncc.

Are those your eyes?
Is that your smile?
I been looking at you for ever,
Yet I never saw you before.
Are these your hands?
Holding mine?
Now I wonder how I could have been so blind.
And for the first time,
I am looking in your eyes.
For the first time,
I'm seeing who you are.
I can't believe how much I see,
When you're looking back at me.
Now I understand what love is,
Love is...
For the first time...
Can this be real?
Can this be true?
Am I the person I was this morning?
And are you the same you?
Its all so strange.
How can it be?
All along this love was right in front of me!
And for the first time,
I am looking in your eyes.
For the first time,
I am seeing who you are.
I can't believe how much I see,
When you're looking back at me.
Now I understand what love is...
Love is...
For the first time.
Such a long time ago,
I had given up on finding this emotion,
Ever again.
But you're here with me now,
Yes I found you somehow,
And I've never been so sure.
For the first time,
I am looking in your eyes,
For the first time,
I'm seeing who you are,
Can't believe how much I see,
When you're looking back at me.
Now I understand what love is...
Love is...
For the first time.
For the first time.

-kenny loggins, for the first time-

while others talk abt how dey gonna miss their cadets and all, i shall dedicate dis entry for my beloved pltmates..

well, its been abt 3 and half years dat we've been together. we went thru thick and thin together. e many many times we got into trouble. sec 1, e illegal gathering. sec 2, horrible day. sec 3, suspension. sec 4, major probs wit teachers. not forgetting e usual conflicts here and dere. and misunderstandings dat not only made us more matured, but understand each other better.

i can still rmb clearly how spastic it was for us to force each other to eat together during recess in sec 1. and we actually scolded fellow pltmates who did not turn up. nevertheless, it did help us bond in a way or another. as time passes by, eating together (having french fries for breakfast, indian fare-food for recess and free food from vegetarian stall after skool) becomes daily routine. it comes so naturally dat once we enter e canteen, we'll ask each other, "where's e rest??" it doesnt matter who 'e rest' are. as long as its only another person frm e plt. it goes e same for meeting at a classroom after skool. whether we're gg home or not, we'll juz meet up and ask if each other are gg home, or juz to say hello or bye.

slowly, things start to change. we were no longer needed to plan parades. or even turn up for pts and parades. it was den dat i realise e end was abt to come. only in e matter of time. even till e last most impt event, we had troubles wit e teachers. our POP, however, was totally unique. wit slow march for our bersurai and e new batch of specialists marching in, it definitely made me feel dat it was all worth it. honestly, i feel proud of e part cs. most of us feel safe leaving their cadets in e part cs' hands. i believe dat dey will do a good job.

all in all, i wud definitely love to thank my pltmates hu haf encouraged me on thru difficulties. for brightening up my days. if not for u guys, i wun be hu i am today. i appreciate e things u all haf done for me too. thanx for being my source of happiness and comfort. for being dere for me wenever i needed someone to turn to. for being e way u all are. thanx for being part me. thanx for everything.

sorry if ive been making things difficult for some of u.

for all dese, and everything u guys are, i love ya all.. _delta'04

forever in my mind. delta 'o4.