mad mode.

 

a step at a time.

i'll keep my heart with yours
for every minute i am gone

 

love and hate.

It's truly amazing how I hate to clear up my room but love it at the same time. When I say clear up my room, most of the time I mean clear my belongings and throw away old stuff. The year is coming to an end and my brother's wedding is approaching. So, for those who have seen the state my room has been in for the past few months, I think it is about time I do something about it. Ok, maybe I should have done something about it like waaaay long time ago. But! But, but, but, but, but that's not the point.

The point is, I just want to share some things I discovered while I was going through my stuff. While I was doing so, obviously, most of the time I reminisced the times I had in Cedar back then. It was the little things that remind me of the times I spent with my dearest friends.

It was funny how I loved to buy pretty and colourful stacks of memo pads, so that I could write letters and simple notes to my platoonmates. There are at least 4-5 stacks of the leftovers that I just found. Not forgetting the 3 cookies cans that I use, to keep all the letters/postcards I received from platoonmates/seniors/juniors/classmates. And reading each and every piece just gives me the personal sense of happiness.

The pictures we took along the corridors in Cedar, during National Day Parade, RODs and also the Thailand trip. Not forgetting the way we looked silly in some neoprints. Awwww, all those times... =]

I just realised something. I liked to keep bookmarks too! Found 8 bookmarks and all are brand-new. There are stickers too. Small notebooks-slightly more than 15 of them-. And of course, many many postcards! The clay cat figurines. =] Unfortunately, had to throw some away because they are broken and beyond recognition. =
Oh wells, till the next time I clear my things again. Probably after the A Levels, and hopefully, I can find things to remember Innova by. =]

By the way, going to HSA again tomorrow. Actually, later. After getting rejected the previous time. Hahahs!

Clean your bedrooms people! =] You'll learn more things about yourself..

Goodnight!

Perak Trip

Left to right: Widya, Wani, Etee, Shammm

 

=rolls eyes=

If you happen to read this, LEAVE ME ALONE!

one last.

Yay! Will be meeting Fad dear later after her tuition. Just spend the afternoon out with her because I know she misses me and that she has nothing to do. Plus, I need to get some things for the trip.

Ok, I am a little excited about the Perak trip tomorrow. Actually, I cannot wait for tomorrow especially because it is going to be a happy happy happy day!

Anyone has a torch light to lend me? I don't wanna keep buying torch lights before every camp/trip. Sigh...

Woke up this morning when Wid called me. She wanted me to act like I was gonna buy jeans from her auntie and follow her to her house. Haha. Sorry I didn't follow ok? So, you people out there who wants to buy a pair of jeans, please contact Widya. ASAP preferably because she's going to Perak with me too.


-never could imagine life without you the moment you walked into my world-

bitcharound

Today was great! Emi and Huda -and her sisters- came over. Supposed to watch movies, but we ended up watching Survivor which is pretty alright for me.

Random: Sometimes, I get uncomfortable reading people's blogs. It makes me sick.

I have not packed my things to be brought for Perak trip. So many reasons why I do not want to go. Already I don't feel like going. But I paid for it myself and hopefully, I'll enjoy myself there.

Looking forward to after-Perak campings. =]

I wanna go IKEA and get some things from there. Anyone wanna accompany me? Actually, I'm asking Fad out on a date. She's lonely. HAHA!

=]

Friday was great! =]

Oh, yes, I did cut my hair again. Hahah, short fringe.

Macpherson outing?? Fad's on holiday now. She won't be back till Sunday. After which, she will be going for camp feast till Tuesday. And I'm going to Perak from Wednesday till Saturday. Not free on Sunday too. Uhh.. After that, everyone might be busy to rush all the holiday homework. Then how, Emi?

I gotta goooo.. Uhuh~ ;)

X cut cut cut X

Picture taken on the 18th of November. And tomorrow, I'm gonna cut my hair again. 

drippy.

Oh, this is freaky! Just after reading Huda's latest entry about her cat getting some kind of liquid dripping from its nose, my nose decided to drip too. And now, I am in trouble because the more I blow my nose, the more the liquid comes out. Sounds gross. Yeah, I know. At least I can blow my nose. Poor Grakey has to lick it. *Eeeww* Get well soon! =] Not as if the cat can read this, but Huda, please tell this to your cat, ok?

Feeling a little vain now. So I got my manicure kit and decided to do up French Manicure on my nails. It's quite difficult to cut the cuticles on the right fingernails using the left hand. Sheesh. Now waiting for the white part to dry. Haha.

Anyway, tomorrow is FRIDAY! FRIDAY means it's a good day. =]

My older brother just ordered KFC. Fattening lunch. Shit.

Oh Fad! Tell me you went this morning. Quite sad if you didn't.

People, please watch SAW II. It's bloody and twisted. Good stuff.

Chickurrnn Little tomorrow. Yayyyy! =D

after so long...

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

colours!

I DO NOT HAVE ANYTHING TO WEAR FOR HARI RAYA YET! THIS IS SO UNFAIR BECAUSE MY PARENTS AND BROTHER ALREADY HAVE THEIR BAJU KURUNGS AND STUFF.

Royal blue this year. Why not PURPLE? Sigh..



Btw, try this. Say out the colour of the words. How many times do you actually get to say out the colour of the word without reading out the word itself?

BLUE PURPLE RED GREEN YELLOW BLACK PINK ORANGE BROWN GREY

shake ya body like a belly dancer.

I AM ADDICTED TO A SONG! hahas..

Got back the exam results today. Lets compare.

Summer Tests Grades to Mid-Course Grades:

GP: C6 to C5
Maths C: E to C
Geography: B to C
Economics: F, then F again.

Oh, shouldn't I be ashamed of flashing my results here? Haha, wells. Up 2 grades for MathsC, up 1 grade for GP, but down 1 grade for Geography. =( Econs grades remain constant. _{Is that good or bad?}

I could have done better for GP if I had put in more effort for Paper 2 (which I failed), because I did rather well for Paper 1. Well..........

I could have done better for all the subjects actually. Especially Maths and Geography.

Doing Econs is like doing History (back then in Cedar)... I am forced to do it...

Been watching pirated dvds lately. =)
Watched Flightplan, half of The Red Shoes and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind...
The third one is so cool.. starring Jim Carey and Kate Winslet. Sweet movie.

Oh, I cannot wait to meet up with fellow platoonmates. =]

biscuits.

I love biscuits. The Marie biscuits and Grape biscuits. I love Nestum too.

By the way, I got myself a new pair of specs last weekend. =] Purple ones. Nerds. Haha! 8]

I remember hating the colour purple though. But now, many things I own are purple. My Nike shoes, the new specs, the current specs, the esprit sling bag -ok, I do not own this bag-, the purple-pink cardigan. Annnnnd, I even wanted to buy a pair of purple Converse shoes, which I thought looked weird at first, because it had green laces. Then, the size that I wanted was not available. There was another greyish pair, which was less nice and not as appealing. Almost bought them, but did not because, I don't know why.

My birthday is coming! =] Ok, not really, but ya, it is coming, right??

Hence, a wishlist.

1. New specs
2. Tote bag
3. Jeans
4. Shoes
5. Do something with the hair? =D

Ramadhan starts tonight. =] Terawih, anyone?

GP on Friday.
Maths on Monday.
Econs on Tuesday.
Geog on Wednesday.

And then, I'm done. =D

test.

i'm tired.

bah.

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

rare.

This is one of the rare times that I actually update the blog. Of course, as usually, nothing much has happened.

Upcoming event(s):

Mid-Course Exams(MCE)
I am not anticipating the MCE. This is due to the fact that I have not started my revisions, which obviously, are supposed to have started long time ago. I did not even make good use of the 1 week September holidays because I was too busy doing nothing. Even though I did not even go for the Geography field trip at Pulau Tioman. As if my understanding of Economics is not bad enough, I did not even attempt to try harder and get my lazy ass to flip some pages. I had the honour to get thrown out of Econs class this morning because I did not do the essays. After that Mrs Koh allowed us(those who did not do the essays), to stand at the back of the classroom. But Mrs Koh, being the nice teacher that she is, let me sit down after I mananged to redeem myself by explaining the 'Monopolistic Competitive and Perfectly Competitive Firms' graph. Will be having extra Econs lecture later. Hmmmmm.

I have a swollen eye. And I think I look ridiculous. Haha!

I am confused again. No wonder I swung so much this few days. 'im a pendulum bob.' as said by Faiz. Poor someone. I raise my voice at him all the time and gave him attitude. Oh, I am so sorry. =|

I cannot wait for Ramadhan to arrive. =] It is kind of my favourite time of the year, next to Aidilfitri(because I will be temporarily rich). $_$ WEEEEEE! And besides the fact that it allows me to stay away from food(hence, lose weight), I also get to eat with my family. It is usually VERY hard to get everyone together because my family is relatively huge. Er.

It hurts everytime I blink. *blinks* Ouch! Erm. Haha! My shoulders are aching right now because I have been sitting down here for too long. And this, immediately, reminded me of the horror movie, Shutter. I have a ghost sitting over my shoulders. 0o0o0o0o0o0o0o......... (attempts to make horrifying ghostly sounds). Attempt unsuccessful.

Hopefully the internet gets reconnected back today and I shall be thrown back into Cyberspace! WEEEE! Did not pay the internet bills for about 8 months and the whole things escaladed to $500++!! -dies-

Alright, it's getting too long-winded. So, I shall sign off!

All the best to all who will be sitting for your promotional exams! =D
Study hard guys!

brrrr...

In the school computer lab again.

Went to JB last weekend. Haha! Had a good time there. And it's all so cheap!! Got myself new sandals and other small things. The oreo cheesecakes are only RM4.80! And the brownie with icecream was RM3.80! My goodness.

I'm, erm, on a diet now. Haha! Hope it will work for me. Currently surviving on wholemeal bread, boiled egg whites and very little water. ONLY. DAILY. Plus lots of running/jogging/walking. Oh, dies.

Gotta go for maths now! Ciaooo..

I miss Fad and Emi.. =]

random.

It is one of those days again when I feel so alone and unattached from the real world. What is the real world anyway? Nothing is real. Everything is full of pretence. Everyone is pretending. I am pretending. Pretend to be someone that they/I are/am not.

I know those moments will never come. Because there is no such thing as turning back time and experiencing the good times all over again. The times when we had each other around. The times when you were there for me. The times when we did not have to worry about anything. The times when we promised to be with each other.

What happened to those times? Why did we just let everything go by? Why did we break our promises? Were we pretending? Was I pretending?

Now, everyone is pretending that they are having a good time. That they are enjoying life, wherever they are. That they are happier with their new friends. Well maybe they are not.

What about pretending to be all nice with me? When all along I thought you were really a good person. The first few years when I hated the way you act/speak, I learnt to get used to it. Then, I thought you were not too bad afterall. In fact, I thought I looked up to you to some extent. Why did you pretend you enjoyed spending time with me? Why did you pretend to be nice to me? Was I really that bad?

And you. You never know how much you mean to me. How much I feel excited when I was going to meet up with you. Too bad that we are too caught up with other things that are happening in our lives. It's even more sad that we happen to be at the same area everyday and yet not meet up with each other.

blue grass purple pear

PW in abt 15 minutes time.

Saturday? Hmmmm...

<3 Happy belated birthday to Shappa and Fad! =]

<33 She is happy. He is happy. They are happy.

<\3 I am tired.

I need to buy sandals.

OBS. Pulau Ubin. December 2005. 9-day course. S$580.
I want to go......

staaaand by meeeeee.

Stay here and listen till it ends.

I truly believe that whatever goes around comes around. I dun give a damn about it all anymore. Sick and tired of nonsense.

Fuck friendships. It's an evil world.

I remember how Mrs Goh, ex-VP, used to say, "Life is unfair. Get over it."

O Weekend, Weekend! Wherefore art thou Weekend? Nah, crap...

backiesss!

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Came back from camp 2 days back. It was like going through OAC'03 all over again. Everything was pretty much familiar. The low, intermediate and high elements and the tower. The toilets. The canteen. The kitchen. You know why? Because we had OAC at Labrador AC. Except that the girls got to sleep in the dorms. =] And it was just so unlucky that I got my period on the first day. (*&%^#@&^*(()!!!!!

I don't wanna talk abt the camp la. Actually I'm too lazy to recall what happened during the 3 days. If you guys wanna know more, read Faiz's or Wani's blogs. =] Haha..

Btw, I cannot go online anymore at home because the internet got cut off. Hahah! So ya.. no more MSN for the time being. And I can only update in school. =|

It's Friday today! Camp 2 people are coming back. Very soon I think, since it's already 10am. yeahh.. =]

Okies! Till next week.. Tadaaass!

.

Feel so lethargic. I run at least 1.6km everyday. Yet I'm not losing much weight or any weight for that matter. Can. somebody. please. chop. off. my thighs. and butt. thank you. haha.

Anyway, I feel like eating soto ayam soon. Hmmm.. Calling all easties to meet up wit me soon~ Fad, Emi, Mer, Shappa and Huda? Anybody else wanna come also can. Just a simple cheapo lunch. This Friday can? I end at 1240 but I have to go back to school by 1700 for Econs lect.

I want to sleep and not wake up.

=\

you dun noe how much you mean to me
whenever you're down
you noe dat you can lean on me
no matter the situation
boy im gon' hold you down..



[j.lo feat fat joe
hold you down]

heh.

My life is so -heh- these few days. Sighs. I certainly do not know what's going on anymore with everything.

Sometimes I wish I could be at many places at the same time. That way, life would be much better. I think.

I need a break. A long, long one.

Promos coming soon.

you're like a dream come true.

One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you


Say farewell to the dark night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child
whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
just in the nick of time..

loooney. lonely.

I'm in school right now. Next to Jo, who is playing neopets. And two seats away from Wani, who is surfing the net. Listening to songs from WMP.

I should have skipped school today. YQ asked me to this morning but I refused because I-dunno-why.

Today's timetable:

0810-0910 Free period [Mdm Mas is not here]*
0910-0940 Break*
0940-1110 Free period [I do not have MT and I heard the Malay teacher is not here today]*
1100-1210 GP
1210-1300 Lunch*
1300-1630 Oral Presentation Workshop
1640- ? Econs MCQ Test [which I have not studied for]

*Waste of time

And tomorrow, too, is a very short day for me. Because I finish at 1240. And free period from 0810-0910 because of MT. =]

What a great day to end the week. I shall have a wonderful weekend.

I feel like eating sushis.

frente!

Every time i think of you
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem i find
Living a life that i can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows
Every time i see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that i can't say

I feel fine and i feel good
I feel like i never should
Whenever i get this way, i just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if i hurt someone else
Then we'd never see just what we're meant to be
Every time i see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that i can't say

sneezes and mucus.

Life is boring. Because I'm a boring person. =
We had lunch at Seoul Garden yesterday! Hahahaha!Beef soup tasted weird. Beef tastes weird. I never really liked beef in the first place. They smell funny and taste funny too. I love fish!

I have so much geography and economics homework to do. I'm supposed to complete them during free period -now- with Ally. BUT evil Jo wants to play games on the computer so we decided to do work at the computer lab. Ally is sitting across the computer table, sms-ing people, when she is supposed to complete her geography essay. And me, here updating my blog. I HAVE TONNES OF WORK TO DO! Shit.

Shall I go gym today? I'm so lazy.

School will end much earlier on next Monday! Because they are having MT oral exam. Weeeheeeeheeeee!!! Original dismissal is 1710 but the rest can leave at 1310!!!! That's like 4 hours earlier!!! Hahahahha!

Ok. Maybe i should be doing my work now. So ya. Bean. Hahaha! -ANVF-

Ok bye...

pain.

Strumming my pain with his fingers
Singing my life with his words
Killing me softly with his song
Killing me softly with his song
Telling my whole life with his words
Killing me softly with his song...

I heard he sang a good song
I heard he had a style
And so I came to see him and listen for a while
And there he was this young boy, stranger to my eyes...






And I'm so proud of myself because I did something very brave.. Hahah! To me at least.. =]

=]

I've finally got a song playing while you people read my entries. Haha! All thanx to Zar!!! =] Thank you okiee? I owe you so much la...

Can I say that I cannot wait for my life to go on smoothly? Heh. Nothing's perfect, I understand.

Fireworks are <3..>

<>We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And, baby, it's killing me, it's killing you
Both of us tryin' to be strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
And someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleep
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you

I know that we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Like Dr. Zhivago
All my love I'll be sending
And you will never know
'Cause there can be no happy ending

Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to, I can't stay
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

chicken, shit and blood.

In the school computer lab now. Beside Widya. She's complaining about having too many people in her friendster list. Hahahs.... =]

Btw, my stomach hurts now. It was prolly e chicken I had for lunch. It was quite spicy and some parts weer still bloody. Shit. Yes, shit. I need to shit. Ok.

Go donate your blood people!

Wish me luck. I'm scared I will chicken out. Urghhhh~

I just went to the toilet to shit. Hahahs! Talking about shit, during break after PE, Wani was saying that the shit that came out of you is probably the food that you ate 10 years ago. Walao! Shit. I need to shit more often then. Hahahs. LAXATIVE!

=]

Nice nice nice. =]

What will I do 10 years from now? By that time I'll be 27 already. Like so old la!

I'm nervous. Are you nervous?

Crap.

Emi, shall we plum soon? My house, ok? Bring dvds and plums. Yayy! Fad must come too. Double yayy! It's only for girls I love. =] Haha.

babysit.

Weeeeeheeeheeee! Today was quite a well-spent day. Its been a long time since I spent the whole day with a small kid. Sure felt good to be in touch with the other side of you. Baby talks, tolerance, patience, silly things, miniature plastic dinosaurs, toy cars. =]

Messy little fingers, warm little hugs and sweet little words. <3333

Why is my hair so dry and rough? Rebonding, straightening, treatment shampoo and conditioner, hair treatments, olive oil and hair sprays. I've tried them all.

I eat once a day. Need to lose some shit.

Cough and mild sorethroat. Bad combination. =S









I miss someone. =|

Someone else has been so nice to me. Why?

criminal

I did not realise that I walked out of the library with a book in my hand without borrowing it. Shall return after I finish reading the book. You might wanna try walking out the cafe exit next time. =P












I'll hold a place for you and I
Inside my heart for you and I
I won't forget these tears I cried
With every year that passes by

And I can't sleep without you
And I can't breathe anymore

Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes

I'll give it up this time again
Some things are better left unsaid
And all I have are lasting dreams
Our word's worth more this time it seems

=]

I do crazy things.



Sad small sweet, so delicate.

=]

hols over?

I just cannot wait for the summer tests to be over. 3 papers. All of which I might flunk.

Almost died just now. Pengs~

fuck you.

I feel angry and sad at the same time. Found out some shit.

So some people were pissed with me.
And so I was selfish.
And so I got overboard.
And then I've changed. You don't even know the real me.
Then, someone else wasn't pleased with something because I did something which everyone else was doing too.

Yes, it was a few months ago. But the fact that it happened hurts me. Yes, you have the right to write about anything in your online diary. Let me tell you that you were not being very smart by including my name.

What about the rest? Bitch about me, yes?

Now I don't know who to trust anymore.

Friends? What does it really mean?

Fuck them. Fuck you. Fuck everything.

Don't worry, I bitch about you guys too.

whereee areee youuuuu

Plt bbq was fun!! The preparation part was funny too. The way emi and merdin cleaned the chicken wings. =P
Luckily rai's dad was dere to help us arnd.. =]

I wish I could turn back time.


Cant wait for Wednesday.. =D













cause i'll be your lover
and i'll be your best friend....

three little birds.

three little birds by bob marley. =D

"Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin': "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', ("This is my message to you-ou-ou:")

Singin': "Don't worry 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."
Singin': "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

messy..

My room is so messy. My books are everywhere. I've not been studying. I have a GP essay and a comprehension to complete by thursday. My Maths and Econs suck. My Geog is no better. And can somebody tell me why the fuck am I not studying? Where is the sense of urgency?

So little time, so much to do. Cliche.

Fad's POP, Plt BBQ, CO Night. STUDY?

I kind of forgot how to do BINOMIAL EXPANSION. And Econs basics give me headaches.

geeeee!

today is ___________________!!!!!!! =]


ok bye! hahahhahahahaha.

floorball.

I'm in school now. Played floorball a while ago and rushed to the library to return my overdue book. It's not my fault -or at least not totally- because I swear I saw "27 JUN 2005" on the date due slip. And it was only this morning that i realised that it was actually "27 MAY 2005". URGH. 8 days late. Saw the list of names of people who returned their overdued books. All were below 50 cents or so. Guess how much I had to pay. $1.10! I kinda broke the record. Haha!

Alright. Tomorrow is the party! I dunno what I am feeling about it. I dunno if I'm excited. Well, maybe tomorrow the excitement will come after I meet my friends. =]
On the bright side, I made 'fruits salad'? for tomorrow. There's too much dressing so I think I have to get more cocktail. ----> spend more money when I am already broke.

And this Saturday is _________________. =D So fast.

A little hungry now. Naaaaak maaakaaan..... Haha.

Oh! An NCC junior's sister is in the computer lab now too. Ok. Redundant.

ok bye!

shoes.

Oh, I need/want a new pair of shoes. Someone just bought a nice pair of Nikes for 250 bucks. Its really nice though. *jealous*

I want to watch Madagascar! Heard from those who have watched it that they couldn't stop laughing throughout the whole movie. Lalala~

By the way, I have the most important message to convey.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, ILIYAS BIN ISHAK! YOU ARE FINALLY 17. AND PLEASE START TO ACT LIKE ONE NOW! HUAHAHAHA~ [present nanti dulu eh.. sorry]





ps: GPP? URGHHHH!!!!!!

last dayyy

I feel so sad. I don't even know why.

GP Summer Test was crappy. I'm gonna fail it for sure.

Be-Yourself-Day was better than expected. Well, some of the performances put up were relatively redundant though.

The MAYDEN ROCKSHOW simply rocked! It was damn cool. Never thought my school has such talented people who can play good music. The rock bands were good! The singers were not too bad. And the drummers were fantastic. Made me wanna scream and jumo. But I was having a bad headache and sorethroat. Anyways, good job INNOVIANS! =D

I still feel sad. -sighs-

miss.

School has not been OK.

Unlike in Cedar when everything was almost so perfect. When we could just run out to anyone to kiss or hug. Or say silly things and sing out-of-tune songs. Or stand on the tables and dance and lie on the floor -anywhere, just anywhere- and sleep. When we could spend hours in/outside the toilet. When you know that you can count on your friends if anything happens and they can count of you. The dependency rate is so high that without each other, you can feel that half of you is gone.

Maybe I am considered lucky that I have people who are close to me now. The feeling is different though.

many thangs.

So much has happened.

Tests. Tutorials. PW. Rai's birthday. Flu. Borderline passes for Geography tests. Barely passes for Maths and Econs tests. Frustrations. Happiness.

Everything. All the nothing-ness in my life is getting on my nerves. Not that I am not doing anything, I just have NO TIME to do it.

Things I want to/have to/need to/must do:
1. Hang out with Fad. [Ohh I miss you babe]
2. Save money!!
3. Spend less on crap. [HP bills]
4. Study for more tests.
5. Make sure I am prepared for Summer Tests.

Shit.




And oh, this is very interesting and kind of true. Stolen from Li Ping's blog.

"I've also had enough of people making passes at their own friend's boyfriends, saying they are too ugly or too fat or too short or too skinny. Sure, we'd always believe that our friends deserve better or can score better than that but this is ultimately THEIR relationship and we should be glad they have found each other, for better or for worst. We should at least try to make the guy comfortable in our presence. Thinking that he's so uncool and being around him seems puts you in bad light, then don't even go out with that particular friend. Why for torture your pathetic soul?

Oh yea. What about those people who make passes at people's boyfriends but do not have one of their own? Sorry peeps. They are simply losers. So what if they are pretty? Or sometimes they perceive themselves to be too pretty to hang around plain people. This just shows how shallow they are. Once again, PATHETIC SOULS."



Travelling back into a state of depression. Here I go.



Of course, some people are making my life miserable by annoying me each time they speak.

Ok. It's very cold here, in the computer lab. ET is beside me doing her geography homework online. [Occasionally surfing the net to ogle at somebody's pictures. Haha!]

ice age.

Watching Ice Age on tv now. I remember watching it with someone when I was in Sec2. Haha!

Just came back not long time ago. Went to town with Semut and Berwyn. Too bad Keefe wasn't there. Did not watch Guess Who though. So we played pool. Kind of missed playing it. Hehe!

Ok. I wanna watch tv. Btw, I juz received a msg from Zar. Haha! He's all the way in Malaysia lah.

Alright people, have a happy holiday tommorow! =]

Sorry peeps I haven been blogging lately. Been busy with school. I finish late everyday and it doesnt help that I live on the other side of the island. pfft.

So little time, so much to do. Tutorials and newspaper commentries. MCQs and essays. Graphs and PI. Can I just wish for a miracle to happen?

I'm home alone. Ok, not really because my mum and bro are at home, sleeping. They kind of slept early tonight, like about 10pm?, because they are going Indo for some religious thingy. Which means I will be home alone for 2 days. Other family members are kind of non-existant. -__- I feel bad just as I typed that. But really, its like that most of the time. So just Dot and I.

Hmmm. Took a nap this afternoon and I just drank coffee. Hence, I may not be able to sleep for a few hours after this. Maybe I can study or do Maths.

I hate it when my keyboard hangs. Whatever you call it. The alphabets just wont appear on the screen when i try to type.

I heard Saggitarius won. Good for them. =] I should have gone for x-country. Its just that I didnt have the mood to run(not that I can run actually) and i was feeling lazy and yadayada. You just give lots of excuses when you dont want to do smth. Hahaha!

Tmr I'm gonna watch Guess Who with Semut and Keefe. Although I'm kind of broke. Actually very broke. I dont know how to spend money wisely. Actually its not my fault. It's the handphone bills. Ok. It is my fault.

Semut haven msg me bacause he is watching tv.

Btw, Semut means ant in Malay. I'm so sweet I attract him. Hahaha! Disgusting me.

Ok. Gonna sleep. Haha. Didnt I say that I was going to study or do Maths previously? Haha!

Byeeee! =]

i miss yous.

im suffering from missing so many people. =(








today was great. thank you guys. =D


song of e day. ;)

you should let me love you
let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
baby good love and protection
make me your selection
show you the way love's supposed to be
baby you should let me love you, love you,love you

zar's

im at woodbridge hospital now. haha. and someone juz came out of e bathroom half-naked and smelling like he juz soaked himself up in 10000 tonnes of body wash. cool eh? =P

okehs. im gonna bake cookies soon....... =D




bye.

jealous?

dots. nothing much happened today.













my shadows the only one that walks beside me
my shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
sometimes i wish someone out there will find me
till then i walk alone

petty?

and so i am/was being petty. its not my fault dat he/she gives e 'i-dun-lyk-to-hang-arnd-u-but-i-dun-haf-much-choice-so-now-
e-only-thing-i-can-do-is-to-ignore-u-and-have-private-
conversations-with-other-pple' face. not e kind of face to face conversations. go figure. w-a-t-e-v-a. u dun reli need me, do u? u are juz using me cuz u're lonely, arent u? and u wish u were somewhere else now, dun u?

my face and body feel warm.
water wells up in my eyes.
throat is sore.
mind tired.
back and limbs ache.
heart aches.

as much as i get irritated wit dot each tym he bites, digs his claws into my leg and hangs onto it, i find comfort in talking to him. dats cuz he doesnt give hurtful remarks or give me DAT face.


sometimes i wish i can juz bite e pple i dun lyk. and run away. and hide. and cry.





i miss all my other close frens. u noe hu u are. always rmb dat i wish i was dere wit u ppl lyk before.

=(

=(

noone loves me
noone cares about me
noone remembers me
noone thinks of me
noone listens to me
noone talks to me
noone wants me
noone needs me
noone misses me
noone calls me up
noone spends time with me
noone gives me warm, comforting hugs
noone stays by my side
noone trusts me
noone helps me
noone tells me nice things
noone is here wit me
noone makes me feel safe and happy
noone makes me feel alright
noone thinks im special
noone treats me right
noone feels how i feel right now

i need noone.

can u be 'noone'?

bored.

bored and alone. expecting emi to come over later. yeap. i shall study while waiting. AP and GP sux e hell out of me. my sunflower is d(r)ying. im so sad. yesterday a guy got knocked down and ran over by a bus opp bedok macs. scary. apparently he died. im hungry.










time, has its way
to show me the reason for living
the world and all its splendor
gives me a sense of believing

that our love,
will shine thru,
and will keep us,
keep us forever,
and our love,
will pull us through,
the bad times and keep us together.

i don’t wanna fight this feel no more
wanna love you and love you, its you i adore
cause its you that matters
just the sight of you throws my heart ashore
and the joy you bring opens up my door
cause its you that matters

my love, needs to bloom
like a flower a process unencumbered
that want, should i feel
when that trail I’ve truly discovered

plums

PLUM MONSTER ALERT!

there is a plum monster in my house. it eats up my plums. it was only one e last tym. and today TWO went missing!

im freaked out. seriously.





actually not reli. muz be my uncle.
i shall hide my plums somewhere else next tym. haizz.

ants.

i hate it wen i cannot bear to eat pretty candies. and wen i keep dem dey get infested wit ants. sheesh. it happened to e jumbo lollypop qing gave to me. and i froze e thing along wit e ants. and now my MIX CHOCOLATE pack gy gave me. yes. i found ants crawling arnd.

dun buy pretty candies. it hurts to tear away their pretty wrappers and eat dem. it hurts more to see them being infested wit ants.

bored/

im home alone. been online since 10 in e morning. surfing e net. blog hopping.chating on msn. shit. im dying of boredom. -dies-

ok. emi coming over later. again! yay! haha. she lyks to come to my hse and do nothing. haha. my hse has nothing nice. she's gonna buy plums for us. and lots of chippy chipps.

ers. i wanna go skool and start it proper. i noe i sound sick but reli. and i also noe dat wen e tym comes, i'd be hoping i was holidaying. haha.

be careful wad u ask for.

ok. taadaaaaaaaaa. dot.

shamida

SHAMIDA:

While these people have some fine qualities they are forced to cope with two opposite influences that work against each other. On the one hand they draw from an urge to please and to serve others while they are compelled by another force to exert their own strong views. They are both soft and accommodating, as well as strong and independent. This sounds like a nice balance but it creates difficulties in their lives. Even as they express themselves verbally they know that it is not coming out or flowing as they feel it should. There is a candidness that belies their true intention. They mean one thing and say another, and have great difficulty in finding the right words at times. When this occurs they feel apologetic and usually say or dismiss their remarks with a laugh or humorous remark in order not to offend. In their deepest desires they love to keep the peace between people. They are sensitive inwardly, and are easily offended and hurt by unkind words.





I WAN MONEY!

hoho.

skool was fun. haha. slack. had some pop star prog in e morning. innova has teachers who are stars in their own way. one is an ex-journalist. another is a very successful national shooter. hmmm. yepp. so e main idea of the prog is to allow innovians to pursue their passion. and innova will lyk help dese innovians to achieve their dreams or watsoever.

and den it was classroom session. handed up my subject combination form. first choice is econs, maths and geog. and second is econs, maths and lit. haha. yes. lit. haha. e lit teacher looks nice and funny. so ya. haha. but dun think i'll get my 2nd choice anyway.

had a one and half hours long break. so went canteen wit e gals in my og. dey haf stylo -mylo names. lyk chanel, shradha?, nilufer =], vernissa. and e most stylo of all, shamida. hahahahahahhahahaha! kidding. dey juz call me sham.

den felt i felt lyk leaving cuz e next item was gonna be war games. lyk ??. haha. but cudden cuz e gates e locked. and e front gate was sort of 'guarded' by dis teacher. so hanged arnd in e general office cuz iman [5year silat champion.. lyk cool or wad] wanted to send excuse letter. he's gg indo for tournament next week. lyk cool or wad again. hahha. den i hanged arnd e foyer wit et. haha! den we had to sit in e courtyard to to play dodgeball. or 'dogdewaterbombs' yar. so hot laaa!!

ended earlier den 1 today. haha.

tmr holiday! yay. but i got no money. spent my last few dollars during lunch juz now. wth. im left wit 10 bucks to spend till april 15th. good luck to me. hahha!

ok bye.

<3

Say it's true, there's nothing like me and you
I'm not alone, tell me you feel it too

And I would run away
I would run away, yeah..., yeah
I would run away
I would run away with you

Cause I am falling in love with you
No never I'm never gonna stop
Falling in love with you




i keep on falling in love wit u.
haha.

<3

jhjkh

skool was fun! at least for me. i enjoyed orientation for e first tym. hmmm. felt lost for a moment till syafiq saved my lyf. haha.

sometyms u wish dat u haf someone who cares abt u all e tym. and wen u do haf dat someone, at tyms it gets difficult. u noe dat he/she cares abt u and advices u continuously to stop doin smth which will do bad to u in tym to come. however, u find dat by stopping doin dat certain smth, u will affect other pple who are close to u. haizz.

wad abt getting caught in a situation? a bad one for dat matter. and dis tym u reli haf no choice. but he/she thinks dat u're juz giving him/her excuses.

at e end of e day, both parties feel bad and guilty and all dat. e whole thing becomes so bad. especially for someone who doesnt haf anyone else to turn to.



i cant stop.
im caught.
im guilty.


e world will be ok tmr.

=] =(

why am i having mixed feelings now. i feel happy i got into my 'dream' jc. yes, im kinda anticipating skool tmr. but at the same tym, smth seems to be making me feel dis way. its tugging me. begging me to stay. and i noe i cant. cuz everyone else is going to different places as well.

i dunno why im tearing. it will be reli weird not to see the familiar faces anymore. particularly my pltmates. i hate these kind of situations in which i am forced to part wit e pple i love. i reli wud give anything to bring back and stay during e good old cedar times.

of course i noe i cant do dat.

haiz..

i gotta move on. i guess the only thing i can do now is keep all the beautiful memories close to my heart.

to all those i missed, am missing and will be missing, much love from me.

<3

blahblah

haha! IJC for me. happy? maybe. cuz its my first choice.
cant wait for tmr? hahhaha! maybe so.

talking to fad on e phone now. still as good as ever. haha!

so i did not get to eat steamboat. haizz. i should haf agreed to go seoul garden wit him. heh. nvm la. next tym..

spngbbsqpnts

mr squarepants was hilariously silly.
"hfeuyfrjhfdmncb... jackass... jkahjdhwueyjdsnfm.. jackass..."
unsuitable for children, no? haha!

new slippers! white base and pink/red straps. butterfly slippers dieded.

mini paper hearts and seagulls are examples of 'sweet lil things'. haha! =]

e malay cashier at plazasing kfc was a total bitch! mofo. all i felt lyk doin was shoving a chicken drumstick up her ass. violence.

fruits salad. nice.

k bye. my flu is back. =S

my bad.

i was so selfish. sorry.






spongebob better be funny. or i make sure i squeeze water out of him.
tmr better be fun. or i make sure i wring his neck. haha.

zaza hse

it was so early and i had to go to my cousin's hse. good food dere anyway. =]

den went to meet up wit e rest. haha. emi gave me a surprise. a pleasant one. hee. glad u came babe! =]

den we went 'deeper into town'. haha. weddeheck? and settled at esp. haha. skanking skankers were dere. ili and i were tempted to dance. haha. yes. got weird stares from emi, zar and hafiz. haha! wat? pple lyk to dance cannot issit?!? hahahahhaha.

hmmm. being a lil more sensitive den most of my mates, i think i can be stupid at times. and sometimes i juz say watever is in my mind, my opinions, without reli thinking if it wud hurt e other party. im so sorry huda. =( i noe it was lyk so long tym ago, but i reli feel bad. worse still, i do not even rmb wat other stupid things i might haf blurted out dat night.








but things juz get so crazy living life gets hard to do.

delta!

haha. swimming was a total failure.. hahah.. we juz stood arnd in a corner and gossip.. hahha.. =D

den we went back all e way to bedok to eat lunch. cheap and nice food. =]

emi came over. haha. we bought plums. we ate ice cream and hersheys chocolate sauce. and more plums.

she went to the physician near my hse. haha. had a good tym watching pple having treatments. heehee.

and she came my hse again. and ate ice cream. haha. i had another plum. hooohooo..

i feel abit hungry now. juz feel lyk munching smth. how abt another plum? haha!

emi zar and me

you. YOU! you la! yes YOU! e one reading dis.

I LOVE YOU!

oh. i miss you too!





=D
delta gathering tmr! haha! better be fun.

march hols...

ive been doin nothing productive ever since i decided not to go to school. hence, e only 2 things i did and haf been doin are to stay at home and rot, or go out and waste time. ok. not dat i dun waste time at home. i do.

and now dat its e march hols, i go out more often and do nothing outside. i dun even go shopping cuz i dun haf money. juz got my allowance today and ive already used half of it to pay my overdue hp bills. hopefully mum gives me another 30 bucks for bus concession or else i'll be left wit slightly less den 70 bucks for 1 month. sheesh. dats very little considering i eat lunch and sometimes dinner outside. i, obviously, cannot survive wit $2 -only- daily. =S

im juz afraid to ask for more money. cuz mum complains wen i complain. geddit? haizz. wtd. wen ure poor, ure poor. =( poor is not e word actually. juz dat i spend too much money on hp bills. so now ive got a new mission. dat is to send much less sms-es. I CAN SURVIVE WITH 900 SMS-ES A MONTH!

i drink till i puke. im sick of it. urgh! i shud drink more water instead.

ok. bye.

why do i sometimes feel lonely even in e company of others? do u too? =S

east coastttt

woke up early today cuz zarr msged me in e morning to ask if wanna go east coast wit him and ili. walaoo!! lyk so early.. den i slept back. and he had to call. urgh. den went to bathe and met dem at east coast. hah! din stay there for very long. its kinda strange to haf strangers coming to u and den talk to u abt anything under the sun.

den we went to parkway to haf lunch and after dat made our way to town. hmmm. walked arnd aimlessly and settled down at coffee bean at specialist centre. and hafiz joined us for awhile and he left for bbq. den e 3 of us walked to ps to go spotlight. now dat was e best thing dat happened today! ahhaa! we played at spotlight. i had a bunch of flowers in my hair, a pair of wings on my back and a wand! hahaha.. erms.. zar had wings and a wand too! fairy godmother from africa. erss! den we went GELARE!!!!!!!! haha! shared e waffle and some chocate chunk dunno wad.. yuppp! nice.. but too expensive sey! den we sat dere for quite sometym den left to go home. hahha!

okeh. i wanna watch simple lifee! taddaaaaaa!

haikel bdae

had a long long long day today. oh! birthday parties can be tiring.

i still think dat having a birthday party for a one yr old kid is totally unnecessary. seriously. lyk he wun even remember the pple who were invited, those who were spending tym in e kitchen packing food for guests -ME- or even the oh-so-expensive-and-'nice' presents he received. den again i dun think he even noes dat he juz had a birthday party. poor kid.

and my arms ached cuz i carried his 3kg super creamy chocolate cake. i kinda volunteered so i shant complain. but still! my arms almost broke ok. imagine walking for abt 400m with a 3kg cake. and no, u cant change the position of DAT cake or the angle of ur elbow. and no, too, u cant carry e cake by the ribbons cuz the person at the bakery said so. or else the cake wud drop and den i haf to pay and effing 84 bucks! sheeeeeeeesh.

and not only dat, there was so much food. so much dat every person who came cud bring more food home. and more leftovers still. it looked lyk there was a weddingbeing held. ok. till here, do u still rmb dat im talking abt a one year old kid's bdae party.

my goodness. juz looking at the food made me reli full. serious. but some dishes were not as nice as expected. a $7/head buffet dinner. e tandoori chicken was a disappointment, reli. it was kinda tasteless tho it looked yummy. hmmm. dere was dis weird coleslaw/fruit cocktail. tasted funny. it was supposed to be a cold dish. somehow i found a lighted burner under e buffet tray.

and before i left my aunt's hse, i packed a few litres of teh tarik for my own consumption. haha! ok. bluff! for my family. yupp. so much of leftover teh tarik. but it was still hot and nice. juz as im typing dis, i took a few sips of it. hmmm.. very refreshing.

im still cramping a little. someone aint feeling too well either. =S

ok. i noe its totally not related to anything ive juz said so far, but i tot bullying acts only occured during e 'primary sch days'. and i juz realised dat bullying is part of our lives. only more obvious in certain pple. according to a dictionary i haf in my hand now, a bully means 'a person who hurts or frightens other, weaker people: Bullies are often cowards.' hmmm.. smth to think abt. if u've actually hurt or frigthened anyone weaker, u're a BULLY!!! hah! and somebody has been a bully. to my sister.

and conferencing wit emi and huda now. so ya. bye. nytes.

pls pple. stop bullying arnd. and back to my first topic, think twice abt having a big birthday party for ur one year old son/daughter. haha!

march

haha. i noe. e blog is kinda dead. im online evryday but im reli lazy to do dis. so. while im waiting for e galfrens to come over. maybe some movies. haha. again. =]

went to east coast wit zarr and ili yesterday. haha! ws great man. kinda last minute decision. was at my aunt's hse wen ili msged to ask if wanna go east coast. haha. it was abt 6 already. so yupp. went awhile. reached dere at abt 7? and we talked abt alot of things. yepp. fun! shud go der more often. reli. =D

and erms. its weird. but i cant wait to go to my new skool. hopefully ij wun be so bad. at least not at bad as sr. serious. well. got st bus dere. so not reli a prob yeah. I CANT WAIT. urgh. i sound sick. haha. bored of rotting at home and gg out. i need to be more disciplined.

for those who noes only:
recently much had happened. haha. laugh. i feel lyk a bitch. den again. life's lyk dat. erms. den howwwwwwwwwww....................................... -silent curse- haha!

ok. ok. cats are reli adorable. especially wen dey're kittens. juz so beautiful. =] aww.. so sweet.

ok. bye. gotta do smth else now. gotta do nothing. haha! lame.

jbbbbbbb

woooooohooooooooo!! i went shopping!! at jb!! hahhaha... wit zarr and ili. i didnt think my mum wud allow me. had to ask her twice tho. ok. e first tym i asked i kinda begged her. haha!

so we met kinda early. den made our way to kranji. den blah blah bla reach jb!! its was kinda smelly dere. haha. den we changed money and eat prata! =D well, we had to order 2 egg pratas becuz dey DO NOT HAF PLAIN PRATA! how retarded is dat!!! and yupp.. teh tarik! zarr's bandong was super sweet larh... aiyoh.. get diabetes i dunno ah zarr! but it was all worth it cuz e food and drinks were damn cheap. haha! lyk S$5 for 3 pple!! 6 egg pratas! can u believe dat??

den we walked to city square.. walked arnd.. den at seed i saw a nice denim handbag!! hahah.. it was nice.. and cheap.. haha.. i bought it.. and e wallets were nice too.. and guess wad? i bought a seed wallet too.. hahaha!! after dat i was already smiling from ear to ear.. hahha.. its felt so good to splurge.. especially wen u buy things for urself.. =D

den we walked to kotaraya to haf lunch.. WOW! lunch was great!!! we had ikan bakar, tomyam, beef kailan and egg.. and rice.. wahhhhhhh!! only abt S$15 altogether larhh!!!

hmm... zarr bought berms and dis sexy, hole-y and im*tat*on adidas sleeveless shirt.. haha.. and ili bought an im*tat*on adidas sweater/jacket.. very nice!! i bought vans shoes.. haha.. qt cheap larh.. and its qt nice actually..

den we bought chocolate milkshake from macs! hahha.. niceeeee!! wanted to leave already but it was raining qt heavily. and e basement of e SHOPPING CENTRE was actually FLOODED! sheesh.

wen e rain got lighter, we walked to e custom to get out of msia.. before which we got ourselves a pack of bbg each. i smuggled 2 packs! haha.. mine and ili's. we were praying hard dat we wun get caught or smth. haha. it was successful! =)

and we took e train to bedok. haha.. slacked awhile at macs den went separate ways to go home..! haha..

today was supppppppperrrr fuuuuuuuun! =D

lesson of e day: good & cheap food = malaysia

haha..k i'm tired. nytes.

qioyeadcklsnx

eck! skool's been bad. reli reli bad. i do nothing but skip lessons. or worst, skip skool altogether. sheesh. e skool is mad. e teachers are mad. e principal herself is mad.

nothing much to write abt actually.

i cant reli be bothered abt wad he/she/it thinks. its my life and i think its reli sickening wen he/she/it gets pissed for no reason. i do wad i wan. he/she/it has no right or anything to stop me cuz it doesnt even affect him/her/it. so to u, stop trying to find out from other pple wad im doin cuz its juz none of ur business.

jkk

=(

stay by lisa loeb

you say i only hear what i want to.
you say i talk so all the time so.

and i thought what i felt was simple,
and i thought that i don't belong,
and now that i am leaving,
now i know that i did something wrong 'cause i missed you.
yeah, i missed you.

and you say i only hear what i want to:
i don't listen hard,
i don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
or to anyone, anywhere,
i don't understand if you really care,
i'm only hearing negative: no, no, no.

so i turned the radio on, i turned the radio up,
and this woman was singing my song:
the lover's in love, and the other's run away,
the lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.

some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
well, this is not that:
i think that i'm throwing, but i'm thrown.

and i thought I'd live forever, but now i'm not so sure.

you try to tell me that i'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.

you said that i was naive,
and i thought that i was strong.
i thought, "hey, i can leave, i can leave."
but now i know that i was wrong, 'cause i missed you.

you said, "you caught you 'cause you want me and one day you'll let me go."
"you try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just scared to lose.
and you say, "stay."

you say i only hear what i want to.

djkasda

boooooo!

its cny! so ya. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

celebration in skool was crap. other den dikir. it was damn funny can. neways, we went to far east after dat. most shops were closed. so we ate at e place next to cahaya. walked arnd town. met up wit e other babies. den we sat outside cine eating paus and siew mais. den zarr and fizz left. we slacked at bk den wid came. den diana came too. ili wrote down in ambitions again. we added road sweeper, pimp and papasan on e list. haha!

den i left wit dem cuz wid had to send smth to her grandma place. den i waited at diana's hse. haha. she has lots of junks in her kitchen. we microwaved cheese sausages. e skins of e sausages became plastic-like and you can actually hear e 'eeeek' sound wen you bite into it. haha! we were laughing our asses off in e kitchen while eating sausages. den wid came over. haha. den i played wit diana's liquid eyeliner. tested it on widya. haha! made her look lyk a mamasan. haha.. ya. den at ten plus i walked home.

woke up early dis morning. den slept. woke up. slept. wke up. slpt. wu. slpt. haha! ya.


im bored!

meeting fad tmr. =D

jhuhhuh9

im sick. i think der's some kind of trend. i feel better wen i go out. but once i reach home i feel damn sick la. sheesh.

so ya. im sick. again. running nose. cough. sorethroat. slight fever. dsjfknruwabjnvAuirwmncweuiefn!! but i got to miss skool for one day. cudden see 'zerk' tho. [i dunno how to spell e sound] hehs.

ok. nytes. cough syrups make u drowsy. reli. try take a sip if u cant sleep. e next 3 mins u'll be off to lalaland already. =]

bye!

bdaeee!

booooooooooo!! today was super duper gweaaaat!!!

came late cuz WE HAD BREAKFAST AT BK AND MACS! dere were sher mer emi haf and ili. =D den fad darl came after dat. =]

we got caught TWICE for skipping maths lecture. wtf.

menstrual cramps suck lyk shit. its reli bad dis tym. i pity those hu experience it on a monthly basis. sheesh. can i juz die.

had double phy after dat. ykp HAD to make me read a statement. before dat he kinda 'forced' me to explain e meaning of 'begin with an end in mind'. purposely seyy.

after skool was funnnnnnnnnnnnnn to e corest core. haha. [??] e MI pple came down to SR. namely, rai et pk and hafiz! and dey came wit a beeeeeeg bouquet of oh-so-pretty-white roses. i was lyk -wahhhhh!- and den came rai's cute snacks. and i -wahhhhhh!- even more. den hafiz took out e incredibles candy can. and e cake came out and i started oh-my-god-ing cuz it was reli beautiful. den e babies gave me a pretty pretty necklace.. =] e cake was reli reli reli nice pple. damn shiok to eat. i sound piggish. sheesh.

den i left to meet yq. den i had more roses and another necklace and a funny/weird/cute soft toy. =D ya. hahaha. had pasta and a movie. den it was tym to go home ready.

my hands ached thruout my whole journey home. i was carrying so many things la.. haha.. e roses were qt heavy u noe. haha.

den at night half e family went for dinner. juz a simple one. had fish and chips. and crysanthemum?? tea. before dearest mum poured sprite into my cup and e drink tasted realy wEiRd.

ok. nytes. dats all for today. my birthday. =D coooool eh???? i dun mind having all dese everyday. hahaaa... =D

thanx to everyone who were involved in a way or another. love ya all! love e babies!! =D

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its beeeeeeeeeeen a looooooong time since i updated.. hahahhaa.. cant be bothered wit dis thing already actually..




nyehhh.



i cant wait for tmrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
so sweeeeeeet arhh....~

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eck...


went out juz now.. hahha.. met fad to pass her some stuff..


eh.. yesterday's esplanading was funnnnnnnnnnn.. kak reen, hafiz, ili and me.. we talked abt everything under e sun.. erm, e moon.. hahha! and dere were stars.. =D its so nice juz to sit and talk.. i dun mind doin dat everyday. haha.. cuz we did not talk nonsense.. most things were relevant.. =) yepp.. looking forward to e next tym we gather together.. hahah!

oh! hafiz.. u better do all those thingss! hahhahahahaha! =P

boooo!

nyehh... nthg much to update abt.. cept dat skool's been ok dese few days.. eh..

mcs was fun.. hhahahahhahaha! funny....

erms.. din get my daily dosage of ehem today.. booo for me! hahhaha.. eeeee!

okie.. selamat hari raya haji to all! e kambings will only arrive during e weekend! haha.. kesian..

okie.. nytessssssssss.............

2005!

okie.. dis is lyk e first entry for dis year.. and its already lyk e 18th day of 2005..

blahblahblah. so many things had happened. good and bad. happy and sad. yeah.

sr was bad. i think its ok now tho. and oh, i might be staying if my results are e same as prelims. if not, i'll be gg somewhere else. lyk.. hmmm.. i dunno..

e skool is full of look-alikes.. sheesh.. and dese look-alikes haf deir look-alikes who haf deir look-alikes too..

for example..
1. dere is gy's look-alike, who is cosmo8.. whose look-alike is e guy who kisses his gf everywhere dey go.. and dat guy's look-alike is in ava club..
2. sara look-alikes and sarah look-alikes..
3. SHARK! -how can it be 3rd on e list.. haha-
4. ANT! and ant's twin..
5. suet ying's look-alike..

many new frens as well..

maths phy and econs are fun subjects. gp.. er.. ya...

and oh, new classmates. weird classmates. animal-ish classmates. e class comm consists of 5 pple. 4/5 are girls. e ct rep is a guy. and im e assistant ct rep. sher is e secretary. haha! our tutor reminds me of muah chee. seriously. he looks dough-ish and stretchable. haha.

only 2 periods for e whole day tmr. mebbe i shud pon. but i wanna see ehem. hahahhahahahah! -ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!- haizz..

btw, my bill came. no way im gonna show my mum. i gotta collect money asap and pay up. die. but it was e holidays wad..

and im having running nose for e first time dis year. mebbe i shud record.. and see how many days in a year i get sick..

ok.. ciaoooo! =D