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i get wad was said.

but sometimes, things juz dun go as how you planned it to be. at a pt of time, u feel lyk doing something. and den after a while u dun anymore. and den wen dere's an opportunity to do smth else, u think dat its wud be more convenient to u. is it wrong to change ur mind last minute.

i dun rmb if anything was planned. it was plain total unconfirmed details.

being the fickle-minded person dat i am, i think i screwed up smth very precious to me.

tell me im a sickening bitch.
tell me im being ungrateful.
tell me you hate me.
tell me im a fool.
tell me i've changed.
tell me i dun need to bother any longer.
tell me u're sick of me.
tell me im a sucker.

lemme tell u dat im reli sorry.

=(

oh god.

=(


haizz.

im feeling ...

its not abt anybody.
its abt me.

sauodweuoc

heh. 2005 is coming in juz 5 days. gosh. dis year passed by reli quickly.

things/pple i'll always rmbr:
weird arrangements of classrooms on e ferst day of skool.
new (old) teachers : ms chng, mrs chew, mdm lum, mr yau, mrs ong, cikgu
old (young) teachers: ms tan, ms ng
irritating teachers
pretty teachers
sisters in skool: delta 04, 4p, malaymates
part a specs
juniors
valentine's day: cookies and more pretty things =D
covered walkway from classroom blk to canteen
sec4 level male staff toilet : cutting fad's hair
spiral staircase : destroying e art pieces -ooppss-
head prefect election
canteen
western delight: free food, wedges, pizza
malay stall : indian seller
indian stall : malay seller, cheap rice
fruit stall: lime juice, watermelon
auntie barbara -hahah! MIGGIE mee and horlock-
drinks stall: soya bean, justea
piano
cafe: small round tables
tvs in canteen
kepo-ing in art room to see pple do their stuff
theaterette
sports hall: aikido [sensei: keep yaa ball-lance]
sports day: took part in javelin [haha.. big joke!!!]
the everlasting i-wan-to-vomit-blood feeling wen walking towards the old cedar track
sports day: bougainvilla
rai's bdae 'party' outside the gallery
1st level empty corridor : morning pts
courtyard: pts, morning assemblys
national day: GOH, no1 uni, sobs, POP, cheers
aesthetic studios: ROD
unusually quiet ROD dinner at pizza hut
unit camp: f&b 1st i/c, a few gallons of milo, bt timah, campfire, good food from auntie lina
midyear exams
prelims
o levels
affirmation ceremony: boring
ncc day parade: boring
tenzing: yq,wq,pz,jy
shappa-brad
shappa-shahrul
fad-fard
amk lib
amk mac
buses 66,65,8,228,25,135,225
far east
cahaya
sakura
choize
shell
butterfly ave
macpherson pple
bird flu
hyperinflation [bloody expensive eggs]
parades and pts, hot milo on saturday mornings
reaching skool late to haf mac breakfasts wit emi
shopping wit fad during prelims
heartaches, heartbreaks
fun, joy, peace and happiness
sci experiments
test tubes, bunsen burners, potassium permanganate, unknown salts, titration
torch lights, pendulums, stop watches, phy reports
last day of skool
hugs and tears, cheers and fears
prom
the usuals and frens: sher, hafie, fil, pk, zar, ili, fiz, diyanah, sharini, kerr
esplanade

i'll add more next time.. mebbe pooling later. wit gy?

jkafew

been sick dese few days. im ok already now. only bad bad cough.

i hate to wait for late-comers. i hate to wait for things to happen. and i feel reli bad wen i'm not punctual. i realised im not very patient. especially nowadays. 3 and half hrs is damn long.

tmr's xmas eve. well, so? i owe some pple presents cuz dey celebrate xmas and i'm getting stuff from dem.

which reminds me dat im reli broke. my mum gave me 50 bucks e other time. half of it was used up for e bbq. and today im left wit 15 bucks cuz food is very expensive.

i think i got plans tmr. xmas eve. e town will be damn packed wit pple. im serious. experienced it all last xmas eve.

i recall pple counting down -from 10secs- to xmas day at 11.40pm on e eve and cheering loudly. den dey counted down again every five minutes. and e xmas carol pple, walking arnd in their costumes. funny dresses.

okie. gotta sleep now. today was a freaking long day. tmr's gonna be another one. ciao.





i realised dat i can actually get anything dat i wan. except dat sometimes, ...

sick

nyeh. stayed in all day. was not feeling too well. actually haven been feeling well since wed. an on/off fever. headaches. muscle aches. cough. phlegm. hope its not dengue fever. i dun lyk gg to clinics to see doctors. cuz after dat i haf to eat medicine.


panadols and drinking loads of water are good ryt? ryt.



i'll be ok tmr! =D


oh, i forgot to mention e sorethroat.

=)

aight! so e gathering was a GREAT success!!!! yepp.. we had lots of food.. movies.. drinks..

bbq was waaaaaay cooooool.. chicken wings, sausages and potatoes.. tho sometimes smoke was produced so much so dat it looked as if smth juz exploded in my balcony.. and pple choked cuz of CO₂ overload.. and teared cuz of e smoke..

puteri gunung ledang was interesting. [so, hang tuah was actually in love wit puteri gunung ledang??]

we ate bee hoon, french fries, onion rings, fishball wantons, chicken wings, sausages, potatoes, chocolates, cookies, cocktail, nata de coco, sparkling juice, bdae cake, coke, pepsi, sprite ice... gawd! can i juz die.. we ate lyk nv before.. hahah!

we sang bdae song twice.. ok.. 2 sets.. lyk in eng, chi, malay and lalala.. for gy and emi.. hence we sang bdae song 8 times.. hmmm... =D

fad's wantons were delicious.. creative sey!
lp's cookies were 'famous amos-ish'... =9
[emi, gy, zx, et]'s drinks were refreshing..
rai's tidbits were yummy..


many accidents.. plates overturned, beehoon all over e floor, sprite ice splashed under e table, cincau on e table cloth, charcoal on e floor, ashes on e faces/food/clothes/floor.. haha! bimbos partying.. waddya expect...

ok.. im so tired.. tmr's sunday.. hafie juz msged.. asked if wanna go out..

to DOT, my cat: thank you, for allowing my darlings make u wear e santa hat. and acting lyk u loved it alot. and thank you for not being as violent as u usually are to other strangers. thank you for not running arnd e hse.. and oh yah.. thanx for being a lil more frenly today. u actually allowed lp and rai pat u!!! =D lastly, pls DO NOT let me find u sitting on e window ledge anymore, looking lyk u were ready to jump down..
ps: its e 12th floor..
pps: im not sure how many lives u haf left..
ppps: I LOVE YOU!

thank you everybody for coming!! today was totally AWESOME! and my younger bro for running errands for us.. HA HA!




=D

bbq!

alright! hope tmr will be goooood daaaaaay!
everything's almost prepared..
i got e bbq pit fixed..
e buffet trays are set up..
disposable utensils and plates and cups are available..

i only need chicken and noodles..
and more food from e rest!


ok.. ciao.. cant wait for tmr...
im actually having a mini bbq in my hse balcony!
hope my hse wun get burnt down.. hahha! ok..
again.. i cant wait!!!

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hadirnya cintamu
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dalam hidupku
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hadirnya cinta by gerhana skacinta.

alpha bits!

alpha bits rox! u noe. e cereal. but dey do not haf some letters of e alphabets.. lyk S, H, I, G, C.. and some letters only come in marshmallow form.. lyk N and M... but dey haf lots of A, B, D, Q, Y, O... haiz.. im so sad.. dey dun haf Ss... and Hs.. and Ms in biscuit form.. den i cant form my name..

ok. why am i doin dis. its juz shows dat i haf nthg better to do. u're right. i DO not haf anything better to do.

dgaw7euiyrcjmkdkaduieywrnmcaiksjdfui??
ajdhewuiyfnjkfds?
dasjhuowe!!
ksandhweu?
djhauehd....
dakjd!
djsdd!
skdfjoe!
nyeh!
=D

sr!

o....k....

im posted to SRJC... SCIENCE course.. hahhahahah! and im happy.. ok.. quite larh.. and so far... emi, gy, sher, mer and hafie are coming along wit me! hoohooohooohaaahaaaa! =P


all the best to those taking their N level results today!! =D namely, zar! diana! gud luck!





you! yes you! i also wanna go holidayyyyyyy!!!!! hmphss!

dasaddsafdgherajkg

booo! still feeling abit weak.. my whole body aches.. ahhh...

went to hafie's hse.. haha.. den straightened her hair... hee!

den to zar's hse.. wad a nice home.. i wish mine was lyk dat..

and to e airport to fetch ili.. boy, he looked ok.. haha! abit darker lar..

den we ate at e canteen.. and i bought e wrong food again!! boo.. e mee kuah was so diluted.. and it was sweet.. wth.. but e crispy crispy thing was nice.. i had my soya bean.. heeee! =)

okie, delta'o4! im planning a gathering dis weekend..
day: saturday, 181204
time: noon?
place: my hse!
attire: casual
bring: vcds, dvds, tidbits

oh! we can haf potluck! [cuz i dunno if my mum is at home to cook some stuff for us..] and some vegetarian food also.. [gy is coming]
so those hu wanna come.. pls msg me.. asap.. thanx!

for now, e pple hu are confirmed to be present are..
1. me!
2. emi

well.. ya.. hope e list gets longer..

jkdsa

and somebody was nice enuf to make me a cup of warm ovaltine! hahaha... my bro..

nuck u!

okie..



I'M GOING NUCKING FUTS!




feel so sick...

=|

NEWSFLASH: im totally broke!

but.. i got e good progress award.. hahah! from cdc.. kinda surprising.. ok.. $150..

been doin nothing.. rent vcds, and slack at home.. kinda miss everyone.. heh.. i wanna go out..

and oh.. i think im falling sick soon.. running nose.. my throat feels funny.. and wen i walk i feel as tho im floating.. serious..

juz now wen i was walking towards my block.. i kept looking arnd.. cuz it felt lyk i was in a totally different neighbourhood.. scary.. and e feeling of floating arnd also..

okie.. i wanna sleep.. dunno abt e plans for tmr.. ili's coming back! lyk so fast hor! =)

nytess...

ps: i noe u pple are talking abt e girl's boobs.. but ya.. hahah! i think she is sexy lei.. lyk she looks ryt into ur eyes.. eeee! =)

dsa

ok.. juz changed my layout.. as u can see.. i think e lady is sexy.. look into her eyes.. come on... hahha! okie.. talking to fad now.. hahah! i miiisssss herrrrrr....!

sad

i was scanning my comp's system for errors...


Severe System Threats Detected: 6811


and e severity of all errors are critical.













i wanna go msn................................

das

bored. no shows on tv. everybody also busy. so ya.

its e first tym i actually wanted to follow my mum to a malay wedding lunch. reasons are:
1. its been ages since i went to one.
2. i miss good food.
3. i was bored.
4. its at my void deck.

yeah. my neighbour got married. and oh. dere were black pepper prawns. u noe. those big fat prawns! too bad i took only 2. btw, i was too lazy to peel e first one wit fork and spoon dat i juz ate it whole. wit e shell. it was stuck to e flesh anyway. it wud make my prawn look spastic if i peel it. of cuz i din swallow down e head and tail. i had to use my fingers for e other prawn. wait. i cud haf asked my mum to help me peel. since she was using her hand to eat. -__-''

came back home. watched THE UNBORN. fell asleep in e middle part. it was too long. my bro said it was nice tho.

im seriously sErIoUsLy SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY! broke.

rented some movies. 2 bucks each. is dat cheap? come over and watch dem wit me! =)

huj

i am such a bitch.










i suck.

=|

asd

okie.. dis is funny.. stole it from weiqi's blog..

http://www.geocities.com/xia_xue_snow/FHMmain.html

ive been gg out for e past week.. reach home at 11-12pm... den leave home at 9-10am.. also dun rmb do wad.. mostly pool-ing.. and walk walk.. haizz.. my life is so.. u dunno wad.. kinda miss my family.. and some frens.. oh! talked to fad juz now.. hahha.. miss her.. =D and oh! ili's in aussie.. miss him.. =D

i bought THE INCREDIBLES tshirt!!! hahahhahahahahha!!! zar tot it was chubby... huh? hahahha! o...k... my tshirt is chubby. wait! wait! tshirt chubby or me chubby!? hahahahhahaha.... muz be me.. booo...

i wanna go holiday.. prolly gg kl wit my bro next weekend.. and he said i haf to pay for his transportation and accomodation.. wroight.. haha!

and im getting more kental by e day.. haizz.. dats us.. kentalans.. ahhahahah! i'm hearing laughters.. yes yes.. laugh.. heh!

i wan a gathering soon! any kind of gathering.. wit any grp of pple.. pls? =D

okie. i feel lyk napping now.. woke up at 7.30am today.. to.. erms.. ok.. nytes!!!

sentosaaaa

booooooo!

juz came back frm sentosa.. ohh! juz how tired am i... very! nyeh. but iwas super duper fun nonetheless! woohooo! dere were sher, hafie, pk, fil, sharini, zar, hafiz, ili and i... wen we reached dere, somebody wanna act smart and 'explore sentosa'... wow~! we ended up taking e bus to palawan beach.. den e -true blue- girls applied suntanning oil.. and e -not so true blue- guys applied sunblock lotion.. haha!

den we swam, played at e slide, burried each other in e sand, make weird sculptures and ugly sand castles, ate junk food, bought/stole super big gulp! -errkss- and e best part was throwing/pushing/swinging/pulling/squeezing each other off e platform in e middle of e lagoon.. and i got thrown/pushed/swung/pulled/squeezed off e platform thrice consecutively.. excluding other solo throwing/pushing.. [u get e idea ryt].. e guys were too strong dat despite dem being outnumbered, we were -eherm- defeated. nyeh! i was silly enuf to sit in a corner [it was e most vulnerable spot].. and yes.. was pushed off e platform.. sneak attacking ili was useless.. cuz in e end i got pushed down.. being e last girl standing on e platform was no better either.. cuz i got swung by ili and zar off e platform.. oh.. great.. it was funny wen hafie volunteeringly jumped off e platform.. haha! so cute! and dere was a mini mud fight.. [hafie: eeee! bird shit!]

we cleaned up and made our way to bugis for breakfast/lunch/dinner.. heehee! nice food.. den went to esp awhile.. bought ice cream. it was kinda drizzling.. so we sat at e empty space area.. and i think dere was some modelling shit dere.. wannabes catwalking up and down in heels and useless shawls.. funny breakdancers all around. we played 'goldfish'.. i won twice in a row.. followed by sher! hahaha.. muz play more okieeeee!

din wanna go home.. cuz den i'll be damn bored.. but we cudden decide on a place to slack either.. so we went home.. so dere.. my beautifully-spent day wit the usuals.. haha! =)







im feeling happpppieeeeeeee! =PpP

dasd

i feel so lonely......





































bleargh.

nyeh

Heaven, heaven oh heaven can't you help me
I looked in her eyes, now she's all i see
Heaven oh heaven can't you help me
I'm down on my knees please help me

First time I saw you girl,
You turn me upside down
I can't stop thinking bout you
My head is spinning round
I got to find away to get with you somehow
Girl I'm so crazy for you
You know I want you now
And everyminute of every single day
I'm dreaming of how it could be
And everynight before I go to sleep
I'm praying that soon you'll be here with me


Heaven, heaven oh heaven can't you help me
I looked in her eyes, now she's all i see
Heaven oh heaven can't you help me
I'm down on my knees please help me

Cant fall alseep tonight I don't know what to do
I hold my pillow but I wanna be holding you
And when close my eyes I always see your face
I know my happiness is only kiss away
And every hour here in the dark
Every beat of my lonely heart
Tells me that I need to be with you
Heaven oh heaven what can I do

Heaven, heaven oh heaven can't you help
I looked inher eyes, now she's all i see
Heaven oh heaven can't you help me
I'm down on my knees please help me

Girl I'd give anything if you were here with me
Give anything you want and anything you need
I never thought that I could feel the way I do
But now I wanna spend the rest of my life with you
And every day that we are apart
I'm shedding this love here in my heart
And everynight before I go to sleep
I'm praying that soon you'll be here with me

Heaven, heaven oh heaven cant you help me
I looked in her eyes now shes all I see
Heaven oh heaven cant you help me
I'm down on my knees please, heaven

Heaven, heaven oh heaven can't you hear me
I'm giving my love for eternity
Heaven oh heaven can't you help me
I'm down on my knees please help me









boooo! i love di song..





i feel so lonely.. hiazz..















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